DIY Soul Retrieval
Soul retrieval is something that had always intrigued me. When I had learned about it I didn't even think it was something I needed. I had thought I was doing well all things considered. This is true for most of us. It is challenging to see where we are when we are in the woods so to speak. It is also hard to judge where we are and how we really feel when our human experience is so subjective.
Basically - I was moving through life and thought I was happy. I was as happy as I had ever been and my life was not super duper great but it was fine. I wasn't necessarily unhappy but felt as though there had to be more.
In retrospect - compared to the joy I wake up with on a regular basis now - I was miserable then but had no idea because it was simply my regular state of being. As human beings we are built to persevere and survive and sometimes this means we do not recognize pain as pain when it is our status quo.
I had no idea that my soul was so scattered. I had blocked out most of my traumatic memories so I had no idea I was ever traumatized. I simply felt as though there should be more to life. That what ever I was experiencing couldn't be all life had to offer.
In the wake of Hurricane Matthew I have been reflecting a lot on how quickly life can change. How tremendous the challenges we face can be. How important it is to have all our soul parts during these challenges so we may have as much of our unlimited being in our body at the time we need it.
Soul retrieval has been a huge game changer in my life. I do not know if I would ever have hired someone to do one for me. I didn't fully understand the value and the cost seemed to high for me to risk without a tangible ROI (return on investment). Like all energy work it is hard to know how the shift will change an individual as all sessions are unique as each one of us.
I was lucky to receive my first soul retrieval as part of my shamanic training. I didn't even know it had been done - my permission was granted but the work was done remotely. I remember waking up and feeling as though Everything was different somehow. Instead of forcing myself out of bed and doing my regular positive self talk to convince myself that it was going to be a good day - that I would make it a great day - I simply got out of bed enthusiastically and had a great day. I remembered dancing and singing in the house - something that I hadn't been moved to do for years and years and years. I was having fun for no good reason by myself. The world was brighter and full of more opportunities. I had felt as though a heavy veil had been lifted from my being and I could move easier and see more clearly. That weekend I joined my small class for our shamanic training and found out about the soul retrieval that had been done on my behalf.
I received two more full retrievals and the difference in my life has been night and day without any of the circumstances surrounding me changing. I feel stronger, lighter, see with more clarity and most importantly - I feel Joy. This elusive word was now something real and it was in my life and making my heart beat with new hope.
If you have ever been attracted to the idea of soul retrievals - I highly recommend having a trained and loving healer fetch your lost pieces of self. It is an amazing experience that offers deep healing. I offer a variety of soul retrievals - this is because it can take 30 minutes (for a mini) or all day (for a full retrieval). I am so passionate about this work that I often offer a sliding scale and other opportunities for energy exchanges.
A great way of reclaiming your soul pieces on your own (some come back easier that others) is this Invocation For Calling Back.
An amazing woman and guru in her own right shared this Invocation of Calling Back with me years ago... before my soul retrievals, before my shamanic training, I had been doing a lot of inner child work and healing and she offered this as a way of integrating the lost parts of my soul into my body in a more expedient way. I want to pass this gift on to you knowing that you may never ask for your soul to be retrieved - knowing that many will never be able to understand the ROI - but I understand it - and I know you deserve and need as much of your personal power to co-create the life you dream of or to get through the life you are having.
I highly recommend reading this loud and proud on a daily basis - you will feel the shift and others will notice your radiance beaming from within in a whole new way.
If you are a little too shy to read it with the strength you deserve - imagine standing on top of a mountain and calling out in your biggest voice - even if it's in your mind.
Invocation For Calling Back:
Whatever Personal Power I have unknowingly or knowingly given away which was only meant for me and which was never meant to be given away to others, I humbly ask forgiveness from the Ancestors for my ignorance and misuse of my power and call All of my power back home into my body Now!
Whatever Parts of Myself I have unknowingly given away which were only meant for me to experience and enjoy and which were never meant to be given away to others, I humbly ask forgiveness from the Ancestors for my ignorance in failing to treasure the precious gift of wholeness which Life has given me and I call All of the scattered parts of myself back home into my body Now!
Whatever Blessings and Protection I have unknowingly and knowingly given away to others, I humbly ask forgiveness from all the Ancestors for my ignorance in giving away and completely treasuring what they meant for me to have for myself, and I call All of my blessings and protection back home into my body Now!
Repeat until you feel the shift - you will feel Really good.
Now go out and Make it a Great day - You Unlimited Amazing Being!
PS - I love you.
Taming the Toxic Thought
There it was again. The Thought that makes my mind stink when it shows up. Standing so strong and proud like it belonged there. Like it belonged to me.
“You aren't wanted here.” It said blatantly. The Thought stood square with stick arms folded in front of it. “ You should go. No one likes you. Just turn around and leave.”
The strong Thought made me shrink back and check my surroundings, check myself. So much confidence radiated from the Thought. I felt as though it must be right and I must be wrong. The stinky thought was permeating through my brain and affecting my whole sense of self. The thought reeked of shame and the wrongness within me resonated with it so strongly I felt I must be wrong
And then I thought about the Thought. And I thought are you really so sure about that? Is that thought true? Really true? Where is this thought getting information? Where is the evidence that I am not wanted? How does it know I don’t belong? So I asked the thought “Are you really so sure? How do you know I am not wanted?”
Indignant the Thought rebuffed “Of course I am sure! After all when was the last time you were invited anywhere?” The Thought stood strongly in the corner of my mind and stepped forward pushing his boundaries, taking up as much space as it could.
I searched through the files of my mind to recall the last invitation I received. “I don't recall any invitations.”
“That's right!” Triumphantly the Thought declared. “That's right because you haven't been invited because no one wants you around. No one cares about you.”
The Thought was reeking of loathing and resentment. The putrid stench began to wrap around and squeeze my self worth. The more I experienced the stench of the Thought I became more suspicious of it being mine. I voiced my uncertainty. “I don't know about that. People seem really nice. They are also really busy. Even though I haven't received invitations I've been included in some activities. Everyone gets busy and it's hard to just keep up with your family and the friends you already have.”
The nastyThought mimicked me in a sugar sweet voice. “They seems really nice.” The Thought switched his demeanor to a hardened authority. “Who are you kidding? You know they think you're nuts.”
The Thought’s frankness was like a slap to the face. “I'm not sure that's really true.” I responded.
“Of course it is honey. I wouldn’t lie to you. After all - I'm your thought.”
“Maybe you are but maybe you're not my thought. Either way - you don't seem to be in my best interest.”’ I started to see the Thought as a big stinky problem in my mind. I was so much happier without this thought. Mine or not I would be better off without it.
“How can I be in anyone else’s interest?” The Thought scoffed at the possibility. “I'm your thought. I'm in your mind.”
“But I don't believe your true. True or not you're definitely not helping me out.”
“True?! Of course I'm true! I'm yours!”
“Prove it!” I demanded. “Prove it that you're really true - that…”
“I am true. I'm in your head. That's proof enough.”
I stood up to the big nasty thought. “I don't think so.” I hissed as I moved forward holding the ground of my mind sacred. “You prove it. Tell me how I can tell that no one wants me around. That no one likes me? Prove it. Prove that people think I'm crazy.”
The thought curled his lip and sneered. “You already know the truth. You are crazy.”
“I know I don’t like you in my head. That's the truth. I'd be better off without you. That's the truth too.”
The Thought hadn't backed up a bit. “Without me? You invented me. You invest in me constantly. That's the truth.”
I was indignant and getting pissed. “I can prove it that I'm liked. You though - you just stink. Even if people don't like me - I don't need to take it personally. I definitely don't need to let your toxic malodorous thoughts to fill my mind. If I do that I'll will feel crazy.”
The thought looked smaller.
“I can prove that I'm liked.” I repeated fully confident. “I like me.” I raised my chin up and looked the Thought square in the eye. “I like me and that's plenty.” The thought shrunk a little more. “I can prove I'm liked and wanted. You - you can't prove anything. I'm not listening to you. You need to leave now.”
The thought had shrunk even more and had moved further back into the corner. “I don't want to. I want to be your thought.”
“There is no room here for anything but my highest truth. Are you that?”
“You must go then.”
The thought shrunk until it simply disappeared.
And she continued to like herself for ever after.
Small changes = big deal